Hello guys, welcome to this new episode, my apologies for the website being down, I had some issues paying the webhost. In this episode I will talk about my experience of being fired. I have been working as a developer for many years now. And I have been fired several times. I am almost used to be fired. So I will try to share with you what does it feel to be thrown over the bus. The very first impressions you have when being fired is that you don't exactly understand what is happening. You know consciously that it is over but your brain needs an additional time to process the information as it doesn't notice any immediate change. Then if you are fully rational you will try to avoid to panic at the maximum. When being fired, there is no need to be worried or sad or anything else, as it is not going to help with anything. I have been fired several times during my career usually because of the delays taken to deliver the ticket or to fix the bug. I know that I have been able to never finish a ticket that was here for months. Sometimes it is a lack of skills, sometimes it is a lack of involvement, of motivation in the project that prevents me from performing, some other times it is some health issues and some other times it is everything in the same time. Some people would not understand what is it to be fired. When you are fired you leanr the true nature of people, the true nature of your "colleagues" of your managers, of everyone around you, or against you
When being fired you notice the event as an observer who would see a bomb exploding far away, but you would feel the effect only after a certain delay. This is exactly what I had experienced. Being fired can lead a lot of people to depression or to terribly difficult situations, this is why you need to save the biggest amount of money you can. In my philosophy I believe that any excess of cash today is nothing but the necessary amount of money for tomorrow's hard times : saving money is maybe the only weapon you have when being fired, it is the only element that will preserve your confidence, your dignity and everything else. Also when you are fired, suddenly everyone turns his back on you, everyone seems to abandon you. These can be very difficult and disappointing moments but it is also during these moments that the truth speaks. Because when everything is fine, people seems good, but it is only during difficult moments that you know your exact number of friends. Sometimes it is 2 or 3 people, sometimes you have only yourself. I am not talking about the fact of calling your friends to ask them for money, I am simply describing the situation where your own "friends" don't want to talk to you particularly during difficult moments. But this is fine, if no one remains, you remain.
When you loose your job, loneliness is often the next step, this will be a period of time where you will be alone, left to yourself. If you are not solid enough this will be very difficult, but loneliness is not necessarily hard, it is hard only if you see it as a bad moment. However if you use this loneliness as a fuel to improve yourself then loneliness is good. At the moment these lines are being written I am being fired and therefore I can tell you exactly how it feels.
So I was fired the first time in 2022, at the time I was working in a bank as a quantitative developer, I was developing trading applications, basically just front-end clients for traders to interact with their financial instruments, unfortunately my contract was stopped after only 5 months, I was devastated, loosing my job at an early age. At the beginning I didn't know at all how to react and what to do, but now I can say with more experience that the most important thing to do when being fired is try to find the fastest a new opportunity to move on. I know that there is no need to be angry in the company or to shout at the manager, this is not going to be any useful. Then I moved to an insurance company, after around 6 months I had my annual meeting with my manager, again I had only bad remarks saying me that I was not efficient enough, this time I decided to find a new job before being fired so I left the company well before any decision was taken, this might have saved my life. After that I have changed different clients but everytime it was the same scenario repeating itself : the manager asking me if I had some time, then explaining me that the mission was over. Every time I realize that you never have to be loyal to your company and that you can do anything you want, you are not obliged to be loyal to them and if you can find a better opportunity then you should definitely go for it. Being fired is always a hard and difficult moment, it is never easy and you can feel desperate about the situation. Me in my life, being fired is for some reasons something that occurred at multiple times, some people would think it is due to a lack of skills. It is a broader problem. I won't say that I have developed an experience in it but almost. See you in the next one.